Once I had gotten to what I considered a "normal" size, I quit following the rules of weight watchers and clean eating. The next few years, I ballooned up and down again. I wanted a quick fix, so I tried Atkins, South Beach, crazy crash diets and nothing worked. I would get REALLY intense when I started a diet and follow it 100% for a couple of weeks, almost to a psychotic degree. Then, like that, I would fall off the wagon and just completely cheat and binge on everything in site. That would last a couple of weeks, and the cycle would go round and round.
I was sooo unhappy. I was sick of feeling like the biggest girl in the room. I hated clothes shopping. I hated when my boyfriend would want to go to the hot tub because I was so ashamed to put on a bathing suit. At one point, I was so unhappy that he offered to pay for a personal trainer for me. I quit after two weeks.
One night, the boyfriend and I were at dinner with our neighbors. He was jokingly complaining that I had replaced the ketchup in the house with a low sugar variety (another crazy intense diet spurt) and my neighbor jokingly said to me "Wow, you just go from one extreme to another, huh?" He probably doesn't even remember saying that, but I'll never forget it. I decided that I needed to get serious and choose a lifestyle that I can live with. No more one extreme or the other. No more crazy crash diets.I don't want to be "that" girl. I needed to find a BALANCE.
In January 2012, my boyfriend and I began eating clean diets and doing the Jamie Eason Live Fit trainer. I can see that my body responds really well to eating clean. I feel great and I have more energy than I ever have. This blog will be where I document my progress and keep myself accountable for my new lifestyle.
Some pictures of my journey: